life slumps & netflix binge-watching

Hello!
I am very sorry for not posting last Friday and this Friday just gone - busy busy busy at school. I have my French Writing controlled assessment tomorrow, as well as a Religious Studies test and a Biology test, my English Language controlled assessment on Wednesday and my French Speaking controlled assessment next week. I also have the school Eisteddfod (eye-steth-vod. It's a welsh festival thingy celebrating culture and the arts) next Wednesday, which I'm taking part in, and then revision for my exams which start in 7 WEEKS HELP ME, with homework on top of all that. So I've had a lot of work to do! I'm frequently bursting into tears and having what I think are panic attacks where I find it really hard to breathe and yeah. So there's that....

Anyway, that's not what I wanted to talk about. I've recently been binge watching Pretty Little Liars - do anyway of you watch it?! ISN'T IT AMAZING?!!!!!!! - I finished seasons 1 and 2 (that's 47 episodes and each episode is 45 minutes long) in 4 days. 4 DAYS!!!!!!! I think that's a talent... I'm currently just over halfway through season 3 and oh my goodness!!!! I think I'd be Spencer if I were one of them. She's the most normal of the 4 and she's always working hard and pressuring herself to do better. Also, when she wants to win something, she gets super competitive like me.... woops.

I've been falling majorly behind on reading as a result of PLL. It's just, I've had all this work, plus piano practise, plus other activities, and after a full day of school and all those other things, I'm too tired to read. My eyes are sore, my head hurts, my back aches, and I don't want to do anything other than lie in my PJs in the same position for 5 hours, clicking 'next episode'.

In fact, it isn't just reading. It's everything. I'm not in the mood to do anything. I'm like a zombie. Get up. Get dressed. Breakfast. Clean teeth. Try to cover up the brush of deep purple under my eyes. Attempt something with my hair. School. Home. Piano. Homework. Revision. Netflix. Sleep. Repeat.

The same thing over and over. I don't socialise, I don't do any of my hobbies. I've lost my appetite, I'm constantly exhausted. I've stopped reading, the one thing I love most in the world.

I have entered, what I now call, a life slump.

Like a reading slump (where you don't want to read anything) but with life. 

And I have no idea how to make it stop.

I've tried forcing myself to read, to write, to do anything. But nothing works. I just trudge through the day in slow motion and then collapse from exhaustion at 10pm.

Maybe it's the stress from school. Maybe it's the exams looming ominously around the proverbial corner. I don't know.

I just don't want to be in a life slump anymore.

Love you all

- B
xxxxxx